Appreciation

simplicity in life is often portrayed as something so simple yet appreciated in ways that you never thought could.

a simple gesture, a word, a look or even just a smile would suffice the need of being appreciated. i believe there are times when people come by, see what they want to see, seek for what they think is best for them and if they do not get what they are sought--you're often neglected and left to fend for what might be the feeling of unappreciated or even under-appreciated. putting up what you've done, allowing others to see right through that defense mechanism of yourself; entirely transparent.

talking here and talking there... i am in a way lost in tracks of what i've in mind to type out nor write or even think about... it's just so blur... the urge to be doing something else while willing to give up your urge, needs and wants because you believe it's for the greater cause and it would perhaps get you a smile... instead... all you got from all your earnestness is to be brushed off like you're not trying--making you feel entirely insignificant.

meanings and significance in life are often determined by how much appreciation, confirmation, recognition and at least a little sign of "i've noticed you" instead of treating you entirely invisible. you're entitled to your silence and your opinions but when you're asked of your thoughts and opinions, is it so hard to even leave a note stating how bad or how good the other person has done? isn't that like the whole purpose of having the recommendation letter / suggestion form in restaurants? there's a reason why these are there.

imagine if you're being benched from an important game eventhough EVERYONE knows you're good at what you do and yet, you don't get any explanation to why you were benched... or despite the fact that you work your arse off during training and when you've improved tremendously, people just deny your achievements or perhaps entirely ignore your existence. YOUR very own life is being neglected, no matter how hard you try... people do not see you trying, no matter how loud you speak... you're not heard, no matter how you be... you seem to be entirely left out--almost invisible... (of course some of these would happen to you in a more subtle way or perhaps its something you're able to relate to)

look at it this way, meanings in life are given to you when you're given an opportunity to have the meanings because we're humans and we need to interact. try living in the jungle for 40 years on your own and see if you would be as normal as you would now. probably seeking recognition from your volley ball "wilson" or your teddy "bear bear" when you've finish cooking your dinner for you and "them". scary eh? well... everyone wants a pat on his back when they have tried so hard that their back are probably on the verge of breaking in half.

given any amount of time and space, everyone wants to be given the appreciation and recognition but i guess i should put it in another term, WE NEED TO BE APPRECIATED this might sound a little like "the maslow's hierarchy of need"

appreciation doesn't come from purely actions... it comes from the will and mind of the person giving it as we would love to feel that the person actually appreciate it and WANTS to appreciate us for what we've done or tried to do...

miles ahead we see vaguely

yards away we see blurly,

feets apart we see clearly,

inches in distance we are blinded.