Attention Seeking Syndrome

syndrome that actually makes someone seek for attention, in ways that you would be afraid... some say people with low self-esteem would be afraid of attention... some said self-esteem = how much attention you're able to withstand... or do you believe there are actually other sides to this philosophy?

let's put it on the table, how many of us denies attention? well... it could be from your parents, siblings, love one, or even from friends... occasionally strangers--or for some people they would want attention from basically anyone and everyone... *hinting on how some bloggers would do everything and anything to get hits* *points at that one person--but realized that i've more fingers pointing at myself*

the whole point of writing this post is already a way i seek attention right? and yes i would openly admit this... despite the fact it would eternally tarnish my name on the surface of the globe... I AM A BIG HUGE ATTENTION SEEKER~! there... now i feel much much better... in fact i've this syndrome since i was young... i've always been a guy with much lower self-esteem but somehow, i simply love to ARGUE and basically i argue for the sake of arguing and then i realized that i'm arguing for the sake of arguing--because i would want to be the center of attention and i am loving the attention i get even if at most times i would be actually WRONG about whatever i am trying to argue about... *fortunately, as for now... i've learned to listen more than to talk (rather beneficial)*

in whatever case it would be, i think there are much reason to why a person seeks attention or perhaps we're merely giving excuses to these flaws of ours just to feel better rather than to feel entirely bad... as for me... probably because i lack attention in the family... not going to further give details on how that happen or when it happen... but it was since young...

it is not wrong to seek attention but do seek it in a more positive way rather than making yourself look totally like an idiot... *pointing at oneself AGAIN*

any how, to those of you out there who seem to be self-attention-seeking... don't worry... you're not alone... people like us are normal as we're the ones that draw the best out of others while able to keep the worst of the lot from spreading out... think of these... it's a balance... we are much outbound rather than keeping whatever we've in our mind locked up in a safe where noone would ever know what we think... thus the creation of BLOG where you voice out whatever crap you might have in that chunk of cells in your head...

as so, life would still move on whether or not you get attention as attention are shown in various angles and aspect... a glance? a look? a smile? the care they have for you? the love? the attraction? everything?

as for me... i believe i often enjoy these attentions... (: forgive me for my total ignorance...


p/s: i guess most of you would realize this, most of my post would sound a little dangling... most of the time--my brain functions half way... i often write out what i've in my mind minutes ago and as i proceed, i am actually writing down vague memories of what crossed my mind...

we seek what we do not see,
we ask for what we already know,
we do what we do not know,
we then feel like we're lost in the sea.